The Untold Story of Pregnancy after Miscarriage

When I found out I was expecting for the 4^th time I was beyond nervous.  Questions swirled in my mind wondering, “is this really going to happen,”  “how long will it last,”  “what did we do differently to make this successful,”  and “are we really going to be parents?”  Before each ultrasound I would hold my breath waiting for bad news.  It hasn’t come…17 weeks into this pregnancy I am finally starting to believe THIS MAY REALLY HAPPEN!

Then I quickly shake myself into reality and remind myself something could still go wrong.  I think this is my coping mechanism, silently preparing myself for the worst and hoping for the best.  It’s like one of those movies or books that leaves you on the edge of your seat and all you’re hoping for is a happily ever after.  

So far this pregnancy has been uneventful which has truly been a blessing after all we’ve been through.  It’s amazing to me how much time has passed and in about 3-4 weeks we will get to find out the gender of our little one.  I am beyond anxious to learn what our baby is.  I am not hoping for one gender over the other, this is truly the case of all we want is a healthy living baby.  

I think some people forget that I am not in total pregnancy bliss.  Yes, we are ecstatic but the constant worry and fear is bothersome and sometimes takes away from this happiness.  One thing I have learned, no matter where a woman is on her journey, she still needs support.  I have some awesome family and friends who go out of their way to make sure baby and me are doing well.  I have been banned from lifting anything over 5lbs (even during an office move), my husband buys me the juiciest oranges on the planet to fulfill my cravings, and my mom listens to my endless pregnancy pains.  The list goes on and on but I am ever so thankful for these people in my life.  I am hoping I can continue to be a support for others.  Going through the miscarriages I learned so much about myself and truly hope I can be the support others need through their journeys.   

I ask for continue prayers for this little one and our family, I believe the love of God and those around us have made all of this possible.