Well I did it! I conquered my fear and had the chromosome testing done. I feel slightly proud of myself for actually going in and doing it. I had put it off for several weeks, just hoping that it would happen for us. But of course it didn't...
So as big as my Dr. made this test sound, it really was nothing more than a poke in the arm and one vial of blood. I was expecting way more, especially with it costing $1000. Past tests have been way more detailed, like 12 vials of blood at a shot. I won't have results for 2 weeks, which hey add another item to the wait of this all.
As I mentioned before, I am beyond terrified of what the results may be. I have even stopped Googling chromosome abnormalities because in all honesty it scared the living shit out of me. I feel like I'm a crossroads just waiting for one wrong move that will send this dream of having a family toppling over the edge. Besides the miscarriages, this is the lowest I have felt for awhile. I think it's because of the fear of the unknown. One thing on this test could mean we may never have a child of our own. I can't believe I'm too this point, I thought it would happen by now.
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